No more I hated the destiny of that rain drop.

First rain of the season – eagerly we all have been waiting for this.
And when it started drizzling, tiny raindrops were soothing me.

but the ground was still dry –

I saw some raindrops touching my hand and some drops falling directly on the ground

And I traced one drop – but it got lost

Least bothered I continued playing with the drops on my hand
Giving it all possible shapes.

I got drenched till core
Later that day, when I was in my room –
Suddenly the idea of that lost raindrop hit me
I couldn’t digest the devil ground just gulping so many drops.
We are also like rain, some of us fall of flowers where they look beautiful
Some on dry sand – where they are born to quench the thirst of desert.
Some get lost in the endless ocean 

It definitely won’t mind being fallen in the desert.
May be many more like that drop can make desert and people around happy.
No more I hated the destiny of that raindrop.
No more was it a destitute.
It was born to die like others,
But it was born with a purpose.

Post is for a person with whom I have spent just a little but quality amount of time

This Post is for a person with whom I have spent just a little but quality amount of time.
This Post is for a person who does not reply my SMSs and Scraps.
This Post is for a person who survives on Papaya and long walks.
This Post is for a person who is the most Bold and influential person I have seen in my life.
This Post is for sexy, lovable, arrogant girl whom I miss beyond words.
This Post is for a person for a person who some how resembles my perception of life.
This Post is for a person who has understood me without uttering a word.
This Post is for a person who never consoled when she saw me crying ,but accepted me as I am.
This Post is for a person whom I miss a lot when I am alone
This Post is for a person whom I have to return a book named ' Broken Wings'
This Post is for a person who is sweetheart and a darling for me
Donno when and how but Sakina I want for meet you yar,
I luv u babes
be the way you are
I simply adore admire and love you
And ya if you visit this blog do call me or at least post your comment

Nothing lasts forever

I don’t know where life is leading to
I just want a cause to live
I just want a reason to live
I have somehow lost interest in everything
Nothing keeps me busy
Infact I don’t have anything to be busy
Is sounds very cribbing but life seriously looks dull and boring
No excitement
No fun
No work
I don’t know where it is heading too
But I am simply not feeling happy
May be this is another hibernation period
Where u simply end up being on receiving end
Nothing lasts forever

I am simply living in exile

My soul was crying
I knew nothing will change
Damage and loss has been done for a life time
My heart broke
No peace left
No dreams left
No desires left
No aims
No faith
No Ups
No downs

I am simply living in exile
Far away from the world of mine

If I doubt my dreams - I doubt my faith in god

9th Jan 2007

Yesterday I was reading “The monk who sold his Ferrari” for the 2nd time.
I remember last time when I read it .I read it as a story book
This time I am trying to read it the way writer has written it.
I mean the way writer wanted it to be read by us.

Sometimes I fear
I fear of many things
I fear of some commitments
I fear of some pressures
I fear of some expectation
I fear of my own soul

While going through the book
I realized god wants us to dream
He also helps us to follow them
We just need to listen to our inner consciousness
We just need to listen to our heart
If you think you are escaping
You are escaping from whom?
Your inner conciseness will always know it.
Right

Gita says” karam kar fal ke chinta mat kar”.
(Put yourself completely into work and never bother about the results (the fruits) of your actions)
Don’t you feel, all our chintas (fears - frustrations - expectations) start here from the expectations
Infact all our sorrows start here

It will be easy to say “deprive urself from the fruit”
But difficult to implement
Can’t we atleast try to achieve so?

Live with satisfaction and not in chaos.

I seriously felt good after reading the book
I feel God has already made plans for me
If he has already helped me to make decisions then I simply need to follow him

If I doubt my dreams
I doubt my faith in god


“The universe always helps us fight our dreams .N o matter how foolish they are “
…. By the river piadra I sat and cried
“When you really want something to happen, the whole universe conspires so that your wish comes true".
….. Alchemist

7th Feb 12.50

7th Feb 12.50

I reached office at 918 errrrrrrrr 915(manipulation)
Since then the only thing which I am doing dedicatedly is time pass
I read some blogs and posted some posts in my blog

I am waiting for my project partner
He seems LITTLE late today
I am supposed to design a document today
I had forgotten it, but just now my PL reminded me

I am simply waiting for the day to end as I want to go home and sleep so that I can get up early tomorrow to reach office on time

In my heart I simply thank that book seller for suggesting me alchemist

I started reading long time ago
Mostly in 6th std
The first book I read wad “Heddy”
The second book I read was “Alice in wonderland”
The 3rd book I read was “A train to Pakistan” in 7th std
I didn’t understand any thing in the book even after trying hard with dictionary

I left the book in-between as I was punished for issuing such a book from library

My librarian gave me a big lecture and good beating when he came to know that I was reading that book

I gave up reading for some time – not because of beating but something else excited me
Hmmmmm Writing
I started writing by a small and funny Hindi poem
I have misplaced all my old poems and really feel bad for that

I started with diaries
Write and tear up


In between I read something easy going
“Tale of two cities”
“David Copperfield”
“Oliver twist”
“Charismas carol”

I found all of them Kiddi books – I mean story books

I again picked up reading something interesting in 9/10th std
This time I started with
“Range of angles”
Then “the man who divided Indian”

From 9th to 2nd year of engg
I gulped down every book which I came across
I read whole “Sidney Sheldon “collection

Name it and I have read it

I adored some of his books but some where nothing more than shit
Still in all his books
The life of lonely women was always presented beautifully
“If tomorrow comes”
“Wind mills of god”
“Sand of time”
“Range of angles “
“Tell me ur dreams”
“Love story”
“Painted house “


I loved all of them
I remember 1 quote from his book where the character says” I know he exploits me – but pain staying with him is less than pain of staying alone”

Then one day the bookseller from where I used to buy books said
Madam aaj kal sabh yahi padte hai
And forced me to buy Alchemist

“I started with alchemist followed by
Veronica decided to die
Memoirs of geisha
11 minutes
Zahir
5th mountain
Kite runner
Monk who sold his Ferrari
Broken wings
Lajja
Who will cry when u die
City of joy
Who will cry when u die
By the river piadra, I sat and cried
“

In my heart I simply thank that book seller for suggesting me alchemist (which I not liked much) but that book forced me to explore world of good books

Samara Revisited

Samara Revisited

Long long time ago
Not that long though

I was adamant on something
Hmm it was a movie

I revisited that movie
Again and again in my mind
Both – before and after release.

I felt a LIFE and a TRUTH in the movie
Life – about a common man
Truth – about the god, faith

We visit temples
But we never visit hearts
Hearts – of people around you

We ask for blessings
We never ask for forgiveness

We love people
But we never love ourselves

We run miles
But we never stop to admire the beauty

We involve people in our lives
But we never learn to live without them

We commit mistakes
But we never dare to admit them

We worship god
But we never devote ourselves to him

maktub

Long before I was born
It was written that I will be born as girl – maktub

Long before I was born
It was written that I will be born with lots of dreams – maktub

Long before I was born
It was written that I will make some dreams come true – maktub

Long before I was born
It was written that some of my dreams will be unfulfilled – maktub

Long before I was born
It was written that I will die a death which I don’t know – maktub

Is there anything like destiny or everything is maktub

U too need a heart to understand

I may look thoughtful, But I am not
I am simply gazing

I may look confident
But I am all in fears

I may seem calm and composed
But I am in complete chaos.

People say Ur eyes say it all
But u too need a heart to understand.

Cry Out Louder Like a Kid

Gradually I feel I have developed the feeling of letting things go, bad experiences, criticism, selfishness - all of them.
As a kid I remember crying endlessly because of the anger with in me against any damm thing.
Neither will I reason that out, nor will I stop crying.

My mom used to ask me
“What happened ? Are u mad?”
“Hmmmmm Nothing”
Crying endlessly without any meaningful reason would make me feel normal.
I simply assumed if I am crying “people should understand the reason themself”

I was a big fool
Still I am same
What has changed is that I have started feeling less bad; I just try to reason out thing if a person has behaved in a particular manner
I feel great when people are nice
asI always expect them NOT to be nice

But I still cry unreasonable
I don’t know but it does wonders to me
I feel great after that

People say a healthy laugh does wonders
Trust me so does a healthy cry

LIFE OF AN EMPLOYED/UNEMPLOYED SOFTWARE ENGG

LIFE OF AN EMPLOYED/UNEMPLOYED SOFTWARE ENGG
Oh Gooooooooooooood New day started

Neither was the weekend exciting nor the feeling of returning to office on Monday,
It all seemed routine. Work and holiday but look same.
Equally disgusting.

Came early, as per the company rules you are supposed to reach early. Else it is going to have impact on your bloody appraisal.

I left my home at 8.51. Realized that it is gonna be late I took a rickshaw, he was I guess unfamiliar to this area, so my drill started from he morning.

I reached office in 10 min.
Signed the so called attendance register – Today I felt like a school kid running to the classroom before his class teacher marks her absent.

Cool I have won, I reached on time
Dammmmmmmmmmmm I have won but what

Now have logged in to my machine
Checked all my office mails --- hmm nothing imp though
Checked gmail ---- seems I have many orkut scraps
Logged on to orkut --- read some scraps.
Logged out form gmail and orkut

It is just 915.

Hmmm now what should I do?
Checked my airtel bill.
Check some news stuff on rediff.

It is just 930
Now what to do till 630.

Oh Godddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd


Let me go for a Tea\Coffee

Flow like a river

It is hard to make resolutions, and almost impossible to stick to them
Some part of our life - we waste in making resolutions.
Some in trying to implement them and the rest in cribbing about not following them.

Flow like a river
Let there be a day when u stop planning and enjoy the uncertainty in life.

Let there be a destination but not a fixed path.
Enjoy the journey through the path, Destination is a single moment
path is collection of moments

Uncertainty is beauty of life

Uncertainty is beauty

Life is full of surprises and somehow these surprises are the beauty of life

“I kept wondering what life is “
“I kept asking what love is “
“I kept asking who god is”
“I kept pondering what future is “

These questions keep us hopeful, inquisitive and interested in the surprise package of life.
Many times I keep cribbing “future is unseen, life is unpredictable --- how boring life is …”

Would it have been different if I know what will happen tomorrow, next week, next Year?

Uncertainty, unfulfilled dreams are the driving factors. Just imagine a day when you get up knowing what whole life has for you. You can clearly see all the future achievements and failures. Neither will you be able to celebrate nor have morons.

That day will be saddest day of your life

Trust me YOU are worth it.

Failure and struggle fortunately or unfortunately have taught me one great thing

“TO LAUGH AT SMALL THING, TO BE HAPPY FOR TRIVIAL THING WHICH OTHERS CONSIDER JUST NORMAL”

Beauty and importance of a healthy life can be best explained by a person who has just recovered from some dreadful disease.

In this fast life we have somehow forgotten to be grateful for small things and take everything for grated.

Happiness and Sadness – both know the address of your house.
Both knock at your door, but you love to treat Sadness with great pleasure, you sit and chat with it, cook varieties for it. Compel it to stay longer.

HAPPINESS feels dejected and leaves humiliated,

Do we ever sit, chat and enjoy with happiness. We take life for granted

Sadness engulfs us – I mean we allow it to do so.

We love to live with sadness

I mean
Don’t stop yourself from crying on trivial things

But always have loud laugh on small thing too.

Trust me YOU are worth it.

Is Life just about making decisions and simply sticking to them???

Is Life just about making decisions and simply sticking to them???

I can’t have whole world to me, but I definitely deserve a little part too.

Either live in confusion and conflict, else live with criticism

Today when I don’t have anything to do, I made some plans

Isn’t the requirement generated of sheer boredom and not of personnel choice?

Isn’t it being like a river that just looks for a way out?

When I close my eyes I don’t see a single destination, I see multiple roads and me at center

Nothing can be judged right or wrong

Dreams fulfilled make us hero and the rest simply go by L

I don’t have any aim; I randomly want to enjoy the journey and stopovers.

Life’s beauty is in its unpredictability and curiosity

I can’t plan --Neither can I stick to resolutions nor can I follow rules

I don’t know who is strong mined
A person who plans and BRAVELY sticks to it
Or
A person who BRAVELY faces whatever comes to him with out any planning

Short term goals

Common I am not going to give you a lecture on short term goals,
But slowly I have started understanding its meaning.
In simple sense I feel short term goals are "what keep us going”.

Unfulfilled dream is always beautiful remarkable and close than a fulfilled one

Out of sheer boredom and lack of quality work, I have decided to dedicate my time to my favorite hobby.
Writing
I just love it ----
I have several times read and realized that every one of us is wholly and solely made for one dedicated activity,
For some it may be their hobby, for some it is their profession, for some there passion, for some dream, for some unexplored activity and for rest negligence.
Life is meant to live
Live it the way you want.Some people say dreams mean a lot
Others write about people who have always chased dreams , won them and then set some more until one day they realize that their life is not moving any where ,
I have read some where “Life is a journey"
Slowly and clearly I have started realizing the true meaning of this statement.
Yes life is a journey.
Birth, teenage, job, marriage, kids, old age
All of them are small stop overs,
At none of these stages we settle down, we are made to crawl, walk or run. But we are not meant to be stable - stagnant or dormant.

What if a person achieves everything he has dreamt of?
Every dam thing.
Happiness and satisfaction just fade away,
They are momentary.
Remember “success is counted sweetest for those who never succeed”, " to comprehend a nectar requires sourest need"

Never stop dreaming, but an unfulfilled dream is always beautiful remarkable and close than a fulfilled one

do u know how to interpret dreams ???

We all have dreams ,
Some follow them and some simply love to cherish them.
I sometimes feel , dreams are wishes .
Dreams are indications, dreams mean a lot, dreams come with messages
directly from god-
When ever god creates us ,I feel he always has some expectations from us,
Deep inside his heart he knows that he has created something beautiful.
He knows his creation is a master piece.
God makes human being for a purpose..
Dreams are simply messages from The Creator to the creation .
Dreams are beautiful , they are just to be interpreted well.
There will be things which you are amazing at,
There definitely is unexploited potential within u,
There is definitely a thing which makes you happy.
You are born to experiment and learn from them. so don't give up
trust me LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL

what is happiness

Either god has made happiness or sadness.

Both dont exist ...
happiness is just absence of sadness and
sadness means absence of happiness

Well i feel he has made sadness ...... because that is what we feel deeply, from core.
Sadness is what leaves impact , gives company and makes us believe god...

And simply absence of sadness is happiness.
happiness is illusion , temporary and mean

Happiness is myth .............