Just Random thoughts about me

1. Meeting and just chilling with my family and loved ones, that is the bestest thing , just calling my parents and loved ones makes me feel go good and so wanted in this world , they are the best things to happen in life. And love me unconditionally. Wish them loads and tons of happiness and good health.

• 2. A good day at work , well it need not be a very difficult project with complex stuff , but yes a well utilized day really makes me feel good. accomplishment are satisfying and appreciations are definitely icing on cake :)
  
  3. I love traveling , don’t know about the world but am surely gonna explore India for sure, The best part of trip is planning and googling about info , I read about peoples experiences through their blogs & pics and it is just so motivating that I sometimes feel like bag packing and just getting lost in woods for ever.
  
  4. Writing really gives me creative satisfaction, I know I am not the best writer - but whatever I write makes me feel proud and good – directly from heart to paper, it gives me immense satisfaction to just vomit all the frustrations and thoughts on my blogs , mostly people don’t agree with what I say , but some real sweet people (especially Supreet – my spiritual guru and E-mail buddy , not met yet ) writes such motivating and enlightening comments that I feel charged up.
  
  5. Gulzar is my fav , I love what he writes and really want to be like him someday , his words aren’t simple but ya they are sugar coated , that guy only can make “Kaminey” " word sound like “Gurr ke dali “. Mirza galib is another superb thing , his writings are in urdu - which I hardly understand but still they are beautiful. some of his lies
• Hamko maloom hai jannat ki haqeeuat lekin , dil ko khush rakhne ka khayal accha hai
• Hame kya bura tha marna , agar eeek bar hota
• na tha kuchch to KHuda tha, kuchch na hota to KHuda hota
  

6. I love reading and Paul Chealo is my fav writer, if you have read his books especially “ Zahir” you can feel what a superb spiritual guy he is. I feel so closer to god and myself when I read his books. I have read “Witch of portbeilio” twice and am planning to read it again. I wanna meet him some day .

7. I love meeting friends, specially the old ones, I don’t have any new friends thanks to my so called snobbish behavior. Well with time I have become a strong believer of one stupid theory “ It is good to have friends , but at very superficial level “ except one or two may be – Sunaina if you are reading this then i want to tell you that I love you and thanks for all the love and beautiful letters , you are a real darling , For rest all I just love to interact , chill , share , have good quality time , but then try to be disconnected, somewhere I have started feeling that I lack quality of being a good friend , I can give love immensely to people I love - but am stupid enuff to expect same in return and it doesn’t work most of the time – people get busy , moody , choosy and then they just get lost without bothering much - well same holds true for me also sometimes .

8. I love being with myself, I feel we are always alone in our worst phase of life - that is the time when we need people most , so if you can manage that time alone then why not whole life - I know it sounds depressing but trust me it is always good to communicate to yourself, who knows you better . It is very important to spend time with yourself and it really helps you a lot.

9. This is me

• I love not to take bath / brush my teeth on Sundays
• Read paper from last page to first.
• Can waste whole day reading blogs and whole night reading books or just listening to songs
• I can talk endlessly on any stupid topic till you get real bored and ask me to shut up.
• Their are days when I just retire to myself and hate people around
• I just feel so confused and restless when I visit temple. I feel more unstable and really weak . Feel like running away and can’t concentrate on anything at all.
• Sometimes I am very moody , and feel like crying endlessly without any reason
• I feel internaly so happy for so many days that i find it irritating when people say they are not happy with things.
• I am not much tolerant to people whom I don’t like. I prefer to ignore.
• I find it difficult to express myself, and retire to silent retaliation mode when I don’t like something.
• I just try to find stupid reasons to calm down - when people are not so good to me
• I love buying clothes , and yes discarding them ( a typical girlie thing)
• You can consult me for advices, I am good at this – but yes fail to follow same. easy is to preach.
• I bitch and crib a lot though I know this is so so so bad.
• I worry a lot, you will never realize it with my stupid jokes but inside I am such a tension freak.
• I love reading history – “ Multiple invasions on India “ , “ Hinduism “ , “ Gennis khan “ , ” Jews “ are my fav topics .
• I love exploring new eating joints and yes “ Kashmiri Wazwan “ is my fav food. There can nothing be as good as “ Roganjosh “ and “ Chok Charvan” . yummmmmm
• I feel very guilty if i indulge in some luxary , i just feel sad about it later thinking about so many people who just cant do it - i really hate being made like this
• I have 0% determination and fail everyday :(