What to choose????

The best days of the life were getting ruined, kicked, and killed and I know I was part of all this somehow, things were not in my control and the frustration around them made it worse. Whatever little essence it had was lost to frustration. Waiting for each day to pass is such a miserable thing to do.

I thought about two options

1) Accepting the situation

i. This brought little peace. But most of the times the level of agitation was way above this feeling, but in the end I would try to convince myself that things will change.

2) Alter \ change the situation

i. This option can also be considered, may be initial fight will be difficult but in long run this will bring ultimate peace for sure. But the energy needed was tremendous and I was always surrounded by fears.

I don’t know how people deal with all this, may be an intelligent person with settle for option 1 and a brave person with option 2 but a fool like me will keep dangling between the choices to be made and living half heartedly till end.

Why can’t god make things easier?

Soil Your Hands – Tend some plants

I must say I am bit lucky here ,
I have soiled my hands digging small kitchen garden back home,
Removed the stones and leveled the area ,set fresh soil in ,
Planted green grass, some fruit plants watered them and watched them grow,
Some rose cutting , even tried basics of Grafting , a red rose from a pink rose plant ,
Grown some veggies , orange, mango, guava tree

Yes I did it all ,

Some flourished and others died but I have seen them grow ,

It is different kind of pleasure to plant a seed and see it growing. 
I can’t describe the feeling of that first fruit or flower on the plant you have grown,

It is sheer bliss.

As kids we would frequently check how much the little fruit has grown since morning.

Plants need, little water, some sunshine and love and they give much more in return,

In Mumbai it seems difficult but I promise to take care of small aloe Vera plant I have just bought.

Trust me without tending much it has already started giving me more than what I have asked for.

Solitary is the best form of attaining self happiness

Solitary is the best form of attaining self happiness.

The more you are person \ situation dependent the more sorrow you bring to your lives. Expectations rejections vacuum and then sorrow, it is true you can’t escape people completely, and they do bring some level of happiness in your lives but most of them are short lived,

If living in such a world brings just anxieties and sorrow then how to keep the child within alive??

Well I can’t answer it completely but I myself am trying to find the answers.

Internal happiness is a state and should never be dependent on the world outside. In the world around you can always behave conduct the way you are expected to. Fulfill your duties and try doing it with a smile but never let your inner self be fooled by this, always nourish it like a child, Seems difficult but not impossible. A smile on face doesn’t cost much but in long run will make you life less hostile.

1) Whenever possible indulge in activity you love – do whatever it takes.

Do it – just do it even if you are on one side of boxing ring and the entire world on other side. Live – Just live your life. Shout Cry scream all at same time and build wonderful memories for yourself. do anything you love , Cook some yummy mini meal for yourself , A walk in the nearby area, A book reading session , Get Glued to blogs , Watch a movie you love , Go for trekking , Get drenched in rains , Take an hour long bath . Shop. Do anything but self pity. Convincing , begging , Self pity are such mean words – don’t do that to yourself may be not for others but for god you are a beautiful creature and you got to respect it.

2) Spend time with yourself, Once in a while indulge in some serious thoughts about yourself and rest all time just chill, You don’t need to change the world or yourself, But a small time with yourself makes you feel calmer, Talking to yourself is such an awesome feeling, with no one to judge and no one to please you are just yourself. Celebrate being you J

3) Maintain dairy \ blog \ some writings of your thoughts, you can post it as anonymous, Vomit out there. Sometimes it is not important to find the answers but the questions which reside within you

4) Accept: accept situation, accept people, accept yourself and then decide how you want to react, running away doesn’t help all the time.

5) Seek happiness in spiritual things , don’t pray to god if you don’t believe in that but indulge in activities which make you feel closer to him, he has blessed you with this great sense when we know what is wrong and what is not. I always think what thought must be in gods head when he created man , did he just create it like animals or he thought a lot before creating him. What must be his idea behind all this? Did he want us to behave like animals if yes then why did he give us special powers.

6) No one can feel your pain the way you do , sharing may feel you better but rarely brings some help, Just try finding answers and solution with in

7) Never give up things which bring smile on you face for anyone, the will be the cheapest bargain ever. Every time you feel dead start all over again but never let it go, People always talk about the things they used to do when they were in school, college dating , with friends , find the things which always bring smile on your fame and do it , how will you feel to fall in love with them all over again.

8) How we remember the moments and memories in life and not days .Meet chat talk to old friends , they always bring some lovely memories about your past, Ask your mom how were you when you were a kid and she will have stories to share, she will tell you how mischievous you were too busy to be grumpy . How your cry was always followed by a giggle and then a laughter, how you would just cry once for a broken toy and then simply forget about it, how you would trouble her for the silliest and stupid things.

9) List down priorities in life –: Some activities are mandatory but bring no pleasure to you, do it anyway try with a bit more patience and precision and finish it fast to find time and energy for the things which you are passionate about. Don’t let mundane jobs take essence of your life, we can’t bring life to each activity we do but at least we should do some activity full of life daily.