what is happiness

Either god has made happiness or sadness.

Both dont exist ...
happiness is just absence of sadness and
sadness means absence of happiness

Well i feel he has made sadness ...... because that is what we feel deeply, from core.
Sadness is what leaves impact , gives company and makes us believe god...

And simply absence of sadness is happiness.
happiness is illusion , temporary and mean

Happiness is myth .............

River

Maiy chali aaj - nayi umang ke saath
pahado ko cheeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrtiiiiiiiii hui
kao nahi rok sakta hai muje.

kahi rahe mili to nikal le
kahi nahi to nayi bana le

jana muje door sagar tak hai .

River:

It has a determination and destination in mind ,
It will reach there and will never stop inbetween whatsoevr may happen

Then i feel it send across a -ve message too.
It never fights against mountains, it just looks for easy way out.

Gone Days

I have Started realising that there is something like good old days ,
and there is no way to chase or to revisit them.
They are gone- Gone for ever :-(

Life takes turns - i mean the unplanned ones.
Thing that mean world today , may be of no importance tomm.
Sometimes i feel god has made humanbeings so dammmmm emotionless that .
They just live for themselves .

We love people just because we need them -
Do we ever love a person just beacuse he/she needs us.

I want control back of my life

Hmmm recall the last time u had a hearty laugh
Long back .......... gruesome isnt it

I dont remmeber when last time i was happy from within

I need to traceback the history

I want control back of my life
I dont want any XYZ person ruling my life

It is sick

-vevity and +vevity

I sometimes wonder if there is any relationship between -vevity and +vevity
As i feel the 2 develop different personalities altogether.
But then sometimes i feel one routs to another
How????? hmmm
let me try to answer......
What means being +ve -- simple being non -ve
or simply the absence of -vevity means being +ve
Like also is like that
does happiness mean absence of sadness in life or presence of soemthing else in life

we never remember days but the moments

some things have lost their meaning in life
I am running --- don't know after what
we all have somehow forgotten the real meaning of life
There is something more beautiful part attached to it,
I don't know where is it ? who is it ?.....
just close your eyes for some time,
there will definitely be some beautiful time
that brings smile on our face
Remember:- we never remember days but the moments

mera kuch saman

mene kaha zindhagi yahi ke yahi tak ke liye thi kya
Agar tum mano to nayi ho bhi sakti hai
Na mano to bhi hum jeena chodenge nahi
Akele bhi kayi dooriyon ko tay kar sakte hai

Zindhagi badsoorat hai, to kya hum badsoorti se jiyenge
Udhas hai to udasi se
Kehdo zindhagi se
Hum bhi uske jese hi tanha hai magar akele nahi
..... 2006

One Last Time

HAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I closed my eyes,
this time i wished that it should be the last time.

I wished - not again I want to feel the World around
I wished no more of anything

But Alas!
I still have to stay back and fight for i don,t know what

What is life?
Who makes it?
How does it feel?
How does it look?

All these questions are still unanswered and i have opened my eyes again to search for the meaning

What is life - how does it look , how does it taste , how does it behave - All are unanswered Question

The day i felt that i have learnt to live - I realised life changed its meaning

When i though life meant fun , it became complex
When i though life was complex , it gave me funny ways to live

Got lost somewhere

I felt cold - My body was shivering ,
so was my inner consciousness .
I could sense something worng - something that is not right ofcourse.

In the meantime my desires overpowered me and my inner consciousness got lost somewhere.

miles left uncovered

I may wont live more
I am weak ,Too fragile to Walk
Hold My hand
May be Together
We can cover
The few miles left between us

Eyes ..........

Those two sparkaling eyes were magic,
Trust me they meant a lot to me .
Not just because they were beautiful but they were full of life.
And that life was full of hidden stories -
many of them were quiet reveling and rest were subtle.

I never dared to explore the truth behind those eyes -
and i never wanted to.
Sometimes you should let people live with their past .
May be it doesnt mean much to you or me .
But some people love to live in past.

Freedom of thoughts within can never ever can be conquered by anyone
You are born free and should live like that
Let others try to dominate ur life but not your alter ego
That belongs completely to you

I have read Zahir , Alchamist , Veronica Decides to die , 5th mountain

All these books end up saying 1 great thing
"FOLLOW YOUR DREAMS"

Do the things which you love or like to do.
Love people when they deserve it least . Unconditional love.
Do we know about the Zahir in our lives

Cost of freedom ------

I just remmembered about one character from my english book of 12th standard
People who have read about that character can easily recall it
The charcter is a masterpiece,
Pride for its nation
Source of admiration and apllause .

The character is a beautiful statue, an awesome piece of Art for whom people allaround world come to admire

He has hands but no legs. may be his maker did not want him to runaway
he has eyes to see everything , ears to hear anything but no mounth to retaliate back


The staue was SAD from within , for him no admiration could match the freedom of being free

SAMSARA

hey the post title refers to a movie which i desperately wanted to see,

I wont comment on movie ,
as liking a movie is alwaz a personnel perception.
Of the whole story what i liked was an attempt to answer some difficult questions in life.

"Why we are not happy?"
"Why do we excape from thing?"
"Why do we always think about I factor and not the WE factor"

Some people say freedom is a bless,
just the freedom of saying "NO to things " is bless

I wont differ here - but sometimes being connected to people you love
gives you more happiness that being alone and
enjoying the whole piece of freedom

Escaping from things, shying away are the easiest thing to do
But what is dificult is to stay back and fighting

Tashi(male character) feels his life as a monk is no more exciting
when he sees a beautiful girl and falls for her.
He is given freedom to choose what he wants.
He gets married has a kid, becomes non-vegeterian .
Unless he realises that he is empty and not a person made for that world

He quits his married life and plans to revert back to his previous life,

Here his wife raises a big question
Everyone worships mahatama Budda and no one has ever heard ofYashodhara(his wife)

It was easy for Buddha to leave his wife and son and move on in life.
But difficult for yashodara to leave her son because
she knew that to worship god you dont need to go to temple.
God lies within us
We dont need to search him

We all hold a complete ecosystem within ourselves

God has made process of creation, he has blessed us with feelings, desires , faith, lust.

Search for happiness within urself , You will find it. Escaping is sin

hazaro kwahishe asi -- mere arman fir bhi kam nikle

hazaroon kwahishe asi, ke har khawaish pe dum nikle
but nikle mere arman fir bhi kam nikle,nikalna ho khulke

nikalna KHuld se aadam ka sunte aayaiN haiN lekin
bohot be_aabru hokar tere kooche se ham nikle

zara kar jor seene par ki teer-e-pursitam niklejo
wo nikle to dil nikle, jo dil nikle to dam nikle

kahaaN maiKHaane ka darwaaza 'GHalib' aur kahaaN waaizpar
itana jaante haiN kal wo jaata tha ke ham nikle

cant recall everything but these are some beautifully written lines by galib which i can never forget

sach bohut nikle mere arman lekin fir bhi kaam nike

aaraman means desires right??
we all like to live for - with and in desires -- sounds weired right??
but definetely sounds true

I , U , He , She we all at some point of time feel lonely deserted thrown out
The normal question asked to people is how is life and the normal answer we get is "It sulks" or"Sick"

Isnt it strange?
When the world revolves around buttons and everything is accesible with in seconds then why we are not happy?

Nice parents nice friends nice jobs what else can we ask for - still all of us feel like paking our bags and running to himalayas

why?????

So many things to think about , always preoccupied with work , still we fell hollow.

why??

Freedom to live the way you want, freedom to go anywhere , freedom to be free - still we all feel caged most of the time

Hey dont expect me to answer it I am myself searching for the answers
I dont know what makes me sad most of the time

I feel

the only person i can rely in life is myself
the only person i can talk to is myself
the only person i can curse is my self

I dont know wether this crap makes any sense or not these are just scattered thoughts in my mind and i have put them the way they came

100% khalis(means PURE)

Nothing interesting

Hey got up late , dressed up in hurry, Gulped
my breakfast and hurrily left my building for office..

Walked till the main gate
hey surprisingly now there was no hurry, beautiful morning(11am though noon)
but it was beautiful , clouds - ooooooooohhhhhhhh cannt describe them-- every time i look at then they just look different, walked slowly and enjoyed that stroll
Saw some kids playing , my heart jumped as i too wanted to do so..
I felt releived from some much mess going in my dumb head..


I sometimes feel that we all deserve these moments in life
Just gazing at different things and you dont have to rush for things
Sit quietly for some time and just think

one more causal day in my life

Today nothing can break my morals, I am feeling like a free bird .Flying with no constaints and restrictions , world is open to me so am i to it. I think things upset you only when you allow them to do so. Be proactive in your life , just do what you feel like . It gives awesome feeling to fulfil your dreams, who are you scared of. you are here to live your life not others . so rock the way i am . Have fun , we all deserve it.

dreams

In my dream ,I was running away from so many things - away just running away, running faster than the things which were following me, did not take a break just kept running dont know where but away from everything where nothing could bother me, away from people, away from work, away from feeling away , away from hurting anyone, just running, the dream was endless so donno how much distance i covered but everytime i closed my eyes i could still see the things which i wanted to avoid. Oh god will i be punished like this till death?????????????????????
here goes one more weird thought ,
Sometimes i feel you should be the way god has made u, live the way u want to live , care NIL for the ppl around u, but then i realise it is always easy to live with this attitude but the difficult thing is to stay where u r and fight back

bored like hell

It is 1156 am . I have got mobile testing work to do.Work is so exciting but something within me is dead, feeling lazy and irritated for nothing . Any other person will be excited for the quality of work i have right now- but i am feeling dull, I need some change else will die like this ... Life is a perception.It is up to you , the way you want to take it, You actually have so many things to do that you dont have time to crib about things . people , situations and hardships - all these things will always be there to test your patience , but you need to be strong and should turn more stronger with every passing ordeal. It is always the will power which keeps you alive , you have to decide for yourself. If life slaps you be proactive and fight back

life is like this

Hey if you want to live or enjoy something to fullest just reach to its limits -- forget the rules , because once u start bothering about reactions you stop being yourself --- Be expressive -- Luv and Hatred are god gifted so is the Freedom of expression